MY NEXT TRIP...

After a myriad range of experiences and years accumulating my physical self,  I am embarking on another journey, only this time I am not carrying my trekking shoes and rucksack. Where am I going, you would ask? Do I need sunscreen..? Hell yes ! Everybody's free to wear sunscreen, thank you Baz Luhrmann.

I have to pack a lot of things for this trip. My not-getting-any-younger body, my very occupied mind, my self painted trunk, my nasal drops, my torch light and my lipbalm. Most importantly, I have to carry focus along. She doesn't come with me on most journeys. I have to keep persuading her to come, telling her she will get the best seat, or the best piece of chicken if she decides. When she does accompany me, we have a fabulous time together. We do what we're supposed to do. We go where we're supposed to go, and we come back as planned. When she's not around, I am distracted. In short, she's really needs to come this time!

Why? Why now...couldn't I have chosen a better time...maybe years ago, when it was legit to take this trip...when I was in the flow of things...? I really cant answer for everyone, but for me, wisdom came late. My wisdom teeth though, came right on time. So, this delay was in the growth of my mental capacity. There's no harm admitting to one's own weaknesses. It makes you stronger, and more attuned to reality. What you couldn't see then, you see now..even more clearly! 

I am used to seeing the positive, and I see the World through rose tinted glasses. I have no problems dreaming of a better brighter future, seeing the good in all things negative. Someone who liked me once told me, "D, dreamers are achievers"...and although I never really liked him back, I liked what he said and I still follow it. Before you think my favourite word is "EXCELSIOR" and I was in rehab as well, let me tell you my scores were pretty darn good. I don't have reality issues, but I really detest when people don't plan for the positive in their lives.

I guess I'm drifting from the topic at hand..she's coming.......okay she's here now...my pretty little focus:) What I need to take along with me is a one way ticket..and lots of tweety balls..you know why? because its been ages since I wrote with pen and paper, and my fingers will hurt from all the writing I am going to do the next couple of years. This time its not a monument, a country,  a lake, or a mountaintop. I am taking a trip...BACK TO SCHOOL ! I am going to University for the next two years...and I am going to learn how to communicate. Well, as proof of my lack of it, this post exists...you will see the change when I graduate in communications and finally write a worthwhile post soon. Its time to leave and I will be sending you picture postcards. Let me see..ticket-check, luggage-check, books-check, sunscreen-check, dropslipbalmtorch-check, focus...???? see you there! :)

EMOTIONAL ATYACHAAR

When Adam ate that forbidden apple from Eve in the Garden of Eden, lil did he realize he was being watched on God's spy camera! If he'd just stayed away,and eaten something else like a potato chip, we wouldn't have had to bear the consequences of his actions. What we all like to deny but definitely go through are little spurts of Emotional Atyachaar, or maybe a lifetime of it in our lives. I am not blaming Adam for anything, as his act resulted in procreation, which is why we are here in the first place, but he should have tried to stay away from temptation. The fact remains that we don't know if there was any woman in Adam's life beyond Eve(i.e. after Eve was created), or maybe she was the OTHER woman(although not technically or historically correct)...a cynics food for thought?

The Book of Genesis would kill me for such defamation, but I'de like to believe there were others. If Darwin's theory of Natural Selection holds true, isn't it said that the fittest and most capable of a species survive to go on living further? If 'selection' in this sense literally means, choosing the best among the lot, my theory of Adam choosing Eve over others to perform the cardinal sin holds some weight. Yes I know, the reader will probably be cursing me for my lack of facts, and stating that Eve was the first of the female species, so how on Earth could there be a possibility of other women during the same time? According to varied religious stories, Adam and Eve were created by God. He created Adam from dust, and brought him to life, and later created Eve from his rib. What if there was another female being created the same way, although unaccounted for? What if the sly serpent knew about it? You know how the census fails to report the actual percentage of people in an income bracket or BPL, although there are many living, breathing people who exist in the same strata of population. What if lil-missy-unknown was such an unaccounted female? Coming back, maybe Adam 'selected' Eve as she was the 'fittest', and the rest is history.

It is inherent in a human species to desire-be it the desire for good clothes, a good house, hefty bank balance or mostly, a better partner. Everyone secrety nurtures a desire to find the best possible partner among others to go out with, and if things work out, eventually marry. When a twelve year old schoolgirl vies for attention from her dashing schoolmate, she also knows at the back of her mind, there are three or four other girls vying for the same boy's attention. It mostly holds true for boys, who fight with their competition to get a chance to sit next to the prettiest girl in class. In this race, only the 'fittest'(Darwin's theory again) boy wins the pretty girl's approval.

Then there is the angle of jealousy, and making each other's partners jealous by going out or being seen in the company of someone equally charming. What starts as a mere tactic to get your partner's attention, sometimes leads to serious Emotional Atyachaar for both the partners. The OTHER guy or girl becomes too imortant to let go off, and the original relationship suffers a setback. If it happens with complete discretion and consciousness, it is upto the girl and the guy to choose between the 'old' and the 'new' , the past and the present. Suddenly this new found relationship starts facing the turmoil of a real couple. Fights lead to bitterness and confusion, often leading oneself to believe what was once valued will always be the best. The past looms over like an albatross around your neck, and sometimes leads to the death of both the old and the new relationship. Such a lose-lose situation causes irreparable Atyachaar to the sufferer. This is a solid case study in relationships.

What was pointed above would still be considered righteous if the new relationship is formed with a solid base, and there is real reason behind leaving your old partner. If it works, its fine, but if it doesn't, you might wana consider serious intoxication and poetry as your lifetime companions...

The new trend or maybe not so new, is the habit of forming recent friendships, online friendships(read facebook friends), or sms and chat buddies. A person who you dont even know in real life, or have probably just met a couple of times at a party, becomes your whole and soul, and you cant stop thinking about him/her. Some people suffer from a condition which makes them want this constant euphoric feeling, this constant need for something exciting and new, and they are often seen indulging in these new friendships. Not happy with their steady partners, or lonely and introverted personalities form the core of this section of society. They quickly respond to a pretty photo's 'friend request', an offer to meet for coffee, a quick date after meeting at a party, and this leads to a whole lot of confusion. People with real life partners like to continue these friendships via email or sms, as its considered the safe option and they can easily camouflage it as a normal friendship. Singles quickly make use of this opportunity to score or get to know the unknown better. If this habit is repititive, the string of new friends continues until a point is reached where they have to decide between the old and the new. The lies, the cheating add to this drama. This causes extreme 'Emotional Atyachaar' to your unsuspecting partner living in the same house. If there is no steady partner, it often leads to a casual fling, or very rarely, a 'real' relationship. Soon, Its time to call it quits!

You must be wondering why the constant reference to these two words. This is not an SEO friendly blog for work, its my own:)
My blog is a tribute to the sufferers of Emotional Atyachaar, to the victims who are caught on tape, and the lucky ones who go scot free, and mostly to the viewers who watch this show...when you watch the TV show by the same name every night, a part of you identifies with it, and wishes it happens or never happens to you...be careful what you do..you might be on camera:)

DONT COMPROMISE ON YOURSELF...YOU ARE ALL YOU'VE GOT..!!

How important is it to be yourself? How much of yourself are you willing to let go of...What is the threshold beyond which you are not willing to change or compromise? These are questions that have often riddled me, and they also amuse me because I know they are rhetoric. Hasn't the lord God made us all unique in our own ways? Dont each of us belong to a different DNA structure, that sets us apart from the next person in the World...then why is it, that we are so fond of identifying ourselves with someone, something, some place, some society, some galaxy...I dont know about everyone in the World, but I am often caught in a fierce battle between these factors. I have trouble understanding how people suddenly let go of their individualism to fit into some strata of identification. From the time a child is into his teens until the day he dies, he is seen trying to fit in, and he tries the strangest of tactics to prove himself worthy of such a fit. Its worse when the fitting in becomes a habit for this guy, because then he even starts liking it all. There is a constant need to please everyone around us by saying things we think are proper, doing things we think are safe, and then going ahead and continuing to live your life this way. Of course a certain amount of control is necessary,otherwise there would be anarchy, and people would only go about doing things as they please, hurting everyone in the long run. That's where my question comes again...how much of a compromise are you willing to make in life?
There are situations that demand compromise, such as a kidnapping, a battle, political turmoil etcetera, but when the compromise extends beyond your inherent lives, it starts taking a toll on you. You begin to wonder if you are any different from the millions of people who live life this way...sorry I should have used the word "exist" not "live"...
Change is good, but only when it comes from within you, not when it is forced. Forced change is ridiculous, as it only lasts a short period. Sooner or later, the DNA dacoit inside you begins poking your brain cells to urge you to come back to your original self..
Maintaining a 'neutral' stance is even worse. I ve seen and met people who'd much rather sleep with their eyes open, than take part in something controversial that involves them. They think they are doing the right thing by keeping a dignified silence, but in reality, there is nothing close to 'dignified' about it. They are just sissies who dont have the &*%# to come out in the open about themselves.
Whatever decisions I have taken in life have been my own. Nobody has influenced or forced me to live my life a certain way, and when they have, their coercion has been met with a dignified resistance:) I dont remember my parents forcing me to change myself in any way. I respect them, and I respect myself. I feel sometimes that my 25 year old brain is not wise enough, or learned enough, and that is when I "ASK" for advice. That is when I "TAKE" advice, not when it is forcefed into me. I despise compromise of any kind, although there is hardly a man in this World who has not made it. I have also had my fair share of compromises to deal with... more so, after a certain point in life, but Im happy if the compromise comes out of my own thinking, and I feel there is a positive outcome to it. Not when it is expected of me. That is plain ridiculous...for even when Ive had to bow down to its pressure, Ive always ended up feeling miserable about myself and have had to answer to this DNA dacoit of mine, who asks me incessant questions after every unwanted compromise...One such situation compelled me to write this down, and advise everyone what the title of my post is...

MY BEGINNINGS.

It is just a matter of perception...it is believed, but to foolishly buy this theory is someone else's prerogative. The way we have been brought up to look at the positive of an issue or a situation negates the true feelings,that lie within us. What we become due to this suppression, is a different person altogether, who has never seen or known the joys of articulating the truth. Its true someone said, when you lie, you steal a person's right to the truth. Just as, when you break your flow of want, to accomodate other societal demands, you take away the right to express completely what lies in your heart. You give in to what others would want you to do in that particular situation, and act accordingly. In this process, the natural momentum of your thoughts undergo a sea change. This step repeats itself, until you are conditioned to act in the latter way. You start believing this was always the way you were meant to act in the first place, when indeed, it is just an act of rather good conditioning. There may be so many explanations to this piece of crap that you're reading, but when you realize each one of us goes through exactly the same process of conditioning in life, youll want to continue reading this. In all stages of life, it is natural to expect spurts of knowing this was the right thing to do...but not doing so, because you weren't ready. There are certain barriers that prevent this flow of innovation, just as noise prevents communication. The mind is a constant flow of thoughts and ideas... some take form, while others dont. It is not necessary to put each thought into form, yet it is necessary to know if you CAN form it. For now, hold on to this thought while I think of others.